Good afternoon you beautiful people,
I have been away for a VERY long time, I've relapsed many times, I've kicked myself In the ass a few times, I've taken a few cold showers then went back to hot (yes I know, I'm weak in that respect :P). The past few weeks I've relapsed once a week in which that relapse comprised of 1 to 3 faps. This is an improvement on the 2-3 day relapse rate I had around a month ago. Things are going surprisingly alright for me at the moment. I got 2 firsts and a 2:1 in my first lot of uni exams, I'm having a crack at some online dating with okCupid and generally life's not too bad. I'm still depressingly single, but I can live with that.
I'm a lot more aware of my urges these days. I watched an interested TedX talk a while back where the speaker was talking about addiction and how it's really good to recognise when you're feeling urges so you can 'take a step back', acknowledge those urges so that you can make the ultimate descision of 'is it worth it?'. If the answer is yes, then (taking porn addiction as an example) go ahead. PMO. Enjoy your 10 seconds of intense pleasure and then the hours of kicking yourself for being so stupid. If the answer is no, then don't repress the urges or ignore them! Acknowledge them. Allow them to exist, be in harmony with them. The harder you fight, the more likely you'll fail.
Happy Sunday everyone,
Catch you later,
KD
